Kaleidoscope.

Life has a way of throwing unpredictable circumstances at us that we can’t control. We experience loss, broken hearts, and pain beyond words. Seems like when one thing happens, it snowballs into a huge collection of things. But lately, I have experienced fifteen minutes alone talking with Jesus and seeking Him was healing to my heart. It was in those sacred moments that I discovered the real God. A God who cared for me, a God who wasn’t going anywhere, a God in pursuit of my heart.

I began to develop intimacy of God, understand and know the compassion of God, and step into the full realization that God was and is my heavenly Father. And that’s where new realizations began to stir inside of me; the realization I need help, the realization I need healing, and the realization He is my restoration.

Remember when you were a kid and you looked through a kaleidoscope and every time you turned it the colors and shapes would change? That’s what my talks with Jesus did for me during a season where it felt like landscape of my life was being ripped up and rearranged. It took what the world saw as broken, and let me see it through the redemptive eyes of God. And that’s what this blog ‘Kaleidoscope’ is about— looking at the messed up parts of our lives and seeing hope.

There’s something child-like about faith in general. It takes willingness to look through the lens in the first place, and belief that things can be beautiful again. We need a new perspective, to see the world as God sees it. Somehow in the midst of our pain and brokenness we need eyes to see God’s redemptive plan.

We worship a God who comes down to us. Who walks with us, suffered for us, and let his heart break for us. Worship creates an arena for us to lift that lens to our weary eyes and let the brilliance of God’s redemptive plan in.

So with that being said, I have fully surrendered this weary, worn heart to the One who holds it with the strength I need, the healing I need, and the push I need. The realization that He is all I need. He sees the trenches I walk in, the mountains I shine on, and the roads that seem to have no end. He is so good. In seasons of growing and learning, He isso good. So to those of you in the season of the storm, I am walking with you and cheering you on because He is good and He works it out for our good. It’s hard to look past the moments of chaos and brokenness, but He makes beauty of it all.